Update on me...

Well it has been around 10 months since I last updated anything on here. Life has been a roller coster for me, a lot of downs but some good ups as well. Currently I am still living in NW Portland and I am loving the life in the city. Being able to wake up to a sun rise over the city is so amazing, I have a wall to wall window in my bedroom that looks out over the west hills so sunsets from my room are fantastic. I am also now pretty darn confident in my driving around the city, I sure do not get as lost now as I did when I first moved up here in August.

I am over half way done with nursing school now! Woot Woot! In fact I have a final tomorrow for the first of my two summer classes. This course has been great, we were finally learning more of the nurs-ie things like IV push meds, hanging IV fluids, catheters, wound care and all that fun stuff. Last semester I had a wonderful course in Psych Mental Health that at some point I will try to put up a post up about my experiences on there cause it was sure a life changing experience.

On the whole I think I am doing better now than I was this fall, for those of you who knew what was going on this will be good news for you. But for those of you who don't maybe some day I will be able to share some of the experiences with you. Once I was finally strong enough to be able to reach out for help I know that road took a split and I was able to start traveling uphill rather than the plummeting path I was on before. The uphill road has been hard and a slow journey but now that I am able to start looking back with a clearer head I can start to see how far I have traveled for the better.

Now I am trying to keep doing small steps of self-betterment to help me stay on the right path. I started working out a while ago and then last week I finally splurged and bought a gym membership. I am absolutely LOVING being able to get back into a pool, the world spins right when I am in water!!! And now that I am starting to see a difference in my appearance it helps with my self confidence and overall self-perception all of which will help keep me going uphill and hopefully not start spinning down again. And drum roll please...I am down 17 pounds! I am supper stoked about it. I still have more to go, but I sure feel good about it.

Well I guess I should post this and get back to studying for my final tomorrow. I thought this would be a good study break and I was right, I am going to have to start this blog up again. I had forgotten how therapeutic writing my thoughts down can be. And who knows, I doubt anyone is reading but at least for me it is helpful so yes, I am going to try to be better at posting things up on here.

Satisfied

A good friend gave this to me a few years ago and as I was going through papers I found it again. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone-
To have a deep soul relationship with another-
Be loved thoroughly, and exclusively.
But God, to a Christian, says:
I want you to be satisfied, fulfilled, and content
With being loved by Me alone-
With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me-
With having an intensely personal and unique relationship
With Me alone.
Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,
Will you be capable of the best human relationship
That I have planned for you.

I want you to be united with another after you are united with Me-
Exclusive of anyone or anything else,
Exclusive of any other desires or longings.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing,
And allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing-
One that you cannot imagine.
I want you to have the best-
Please allow Me to bring it to you.
You just keep watching Me, trusting Me-
Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am.
Keep listening and learning the things I tell you.
You just wait.
That's all.

Don't be anxious.
Don't worry.
Don't look around at the things
Others have gotten or that I've given them.
Don't look at the things you think you want.
You just keep looking off and up to Me,
Or you'll miss what I want to show you.

And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love
Far more wonderful than any you would dream of.
You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready,
(I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time),
Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I prepared for you,
You won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with me.
And this is the perfect love.

And dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love.
I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me,
And to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting union of beauty, perfection, and love
That I offer you with Myself.
Know that I love you utterly.
I am God.
Believe and be satisfied

I am back!

I have not been on in ages...why....well I moved to Portland to start nursing school and found out that the building is wireless...great for those with laptops but not if you have a desktop. I try to use the computer lab but it closes at 5 p.m. which makes it so I only use if for homework and not for fun things like blogging. But my grandpa was AMAZING and offered to get me a macbook! It arrived today and I am loving it so far. Now that I have internet when ever I want I will be able to do homework and do the fun little extras.

Hopefully soon I will be able to catch you up on all the fun things that have happened in the last 3 weeks, but for now know that I am loving school so far!!

Tootles

Steph

Hi Roonie, This is fun to learn, I hope I remember to go to Dashboard!!!! HUGS

Dreams...

So for the last month and a half or so I have been having Crazy dreams, so crazy that I am to the point of wanting to snip something to make the dreaming stop. Ok not really, but it would be nice to not wake up exhausted from all the activities in my dreams. Since about my teen years I have these crazy dreams every once in a while, but as of late it has been almost EVERY night. I am excited for the next two days off for camping up at Odell Lake, hopefully I will get some good restful sleep there.

Last night in my dream I turned into Mary Camden from the WB show 7th Heaven. FYI I loved all those years of watching the show, too bad it is over.



Well anyhoo I was Mary but some how I got pregnant but not with a human baby as which normal people get pregnant with...no, I had kittens. At first it was only going to be one...

But some how in uetro they divided the brain matter of the one into four kittens.

One was a perfect little guy, the second was close, but had some issues, the third had some major issues, but the fourth was a basket case

The littlest one kept falling asleep in his food (yea, I even found a cute picture to match), he would even forget to unhook his claws when being picked up so the blankets would pull up. He was kinda a worthless kitten as bad as that is to say...but remember it was a dream.

I always have questions in my dreams....this dream included the following
1. how did I get pregnant with kittens?
2. how long is the gestation period for cats when they are inside a human
3. why did I get dumb kittens
4. what is my family going to say when I tell them I have kittens for kids
5. how am I going to get the kittens away from the forest fire down the street (oh ya, there was a fire in the dream as well)

It was sure a crazy dream, but finding pictures to match was a lot of fun. Maybe I will tell more of my dreams on here and match them up with pictures.....

Look what the cat brought home...

Mom sent this video clip to me this morning and I just started cracking up! Hope you enjoy.

Mighty to Save - Hillsong

As promised these are the lyrics to one of the AMAZING songs played at church on Sunday. Ever since I first heard this song I fell in love.

Everyone needs compassion,
Love that's never failing;
Let mercy fall on me.

Everyone needs forgiveness,
The kindness of a Saviour;
The Hope of nations.

Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.

Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.

I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.

My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We're singing for the glory of the risen King...Jesus (x2)

My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.

Forever, Author of salvation,

He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

My Saviour, you can move the mountains,
You are mighty to save,
You are mighty to save.
Forever, Author of Salvation,
You rose and conquered the grave,
Yes you conquered the grave